Thursday, August 21, 2008

WHY? WHY? WHY?

It's so frustrating when I have a great idea and then don't follow through. I think that all of a sudden I've come up with the best solution... and maybe I have, but because I don't follow through, I fall again!

Today I visited a porn site that I used to view regularly. Why would I even type that into my web browser? BECAUSE I LOST FOCUS! This blog was set up to help me maintain that focus, but it will only be effective if I frequently post my thoughts and feelings on the blog.

I feel so stupid. I feel so scared. I feel so angry. Each time I slip, I'm that much closer to my wife finally giving up and divorcing me. I couldn't live with that. I couldn't live without her or my kids. I have to succeed. I WILL SUCCEED.

2 comments:

Unknown said...

Hello. My name is Luke and I blog at CovenantEyes.com/blog. I am getting ready to write about about how pornography addicts use blogging as way to help themselves through their addiction. Would you be interested in shooting me a quick email with some thoughts?

1. Why do you blog about your addiction/temptation with porn?
2. Have you been encouraged through your use of a blog? How?
3. Have you met other bloggers who are doing the same thing?

Let me know if you are interested in helping me with this! Thanks.

luke.gilkerson@covenanteyes.com

Tracey said...

Affirmations that you will succeed in your journey to recovery means you've already won half the battle. As a partner of a recovering porn addict who's under the online therapy program GreatnessAhead, I believe that being positive in accomplishing our goals will truly help us to be inspired regardless of slips.