WHY? WHY? WHY?

It's so frustrating when I have a great idea and then don't follow through. I think that all of a sudden I've come up with the best solution... and maybe I have, but because I don't follow through, I fall again!

Today I visited a porn site that I used to view regularly. Why would I even type that into my web browser? BECAUSE I LOST FOCUS! This blog was set up to help me maintain that focus, but it will only be effective if I frequently post my thoughts and feelings on the blog.

I feel so stupid. I feel so scared. I feel so angry. Each time I slip, I'm that much closer to my wife finally giving up and divorcing me. I couldn't live with that. I couldn't live without her or my kids. I have to succeed. I WILL SUCCEED.